overreaching

Psalm 131

A song of ascents. Of David.

1 My heart is not proud, LORD,
my eyes are not haughty;
I do not concern myself with great matters
or things too wonderful for me.
2 But I have calmed and quieted myself,
I am like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child I am content.

3 Israel, put your hope in the LORD
both now and forevermore.

Our mind matters. We’re to love God with all our mind, along with our heart, soul and strength. We’re to grow in wisdom and knowledge. Indeed we’re to be transformed by the renewing of our minds. And amazingly we in Jesus have his mind.

On the other hand, we’re not to lean on our own understanding. We need to be well aware of how easily we deceive ourselves. And we need to take every thought captive to make our thoughts obedient to Christ.

I am beginning to think that I over think, or over analyze my life. When I was younger, I didn’t know much else more. I’d land on a text and try to put my faith on that word from God, but then think and think and think about the problem or situation, turning it over again and again. With little satisfaction coming from that most of the time.

Now I like to develop the posture more and more of simply not knowing. This doesn’t mean that we don’t know a lot. By faith we accept God’s witness given to us in his word concerning Jesus, and all of scripture relating to God’s will and theme of the Story of God’s kingdom and grace come in him. We can be bold on the themes of creation, fall, covenant, redemption, new creation. Of the centrality of Christ himself in the Story. Of the importance of loving God and loving our neighbor as ourselves. So it’s not like we know nothing. God has given us a good deal which we do understand, albeit ever so imperfectly, by faith.

I want to learn to not be in the habit that I’m afraid I’m still all too prone toward: thinking that with God’s help I can think anything through. Even along with others, which is actually much better. Not to say we shouldn’t think on things. And ponder them in our hearts, even as Mary, the mother of our Lord, did.

But we need to be as children before God. Yes, wanting to know. But above all trusting. Trusting in God just as a helpless child trusts in their parent. Not imagining that we know it all, or really rightly know anything at all apart from our relationship to our Father. That he loves us, and gives us all we need in and through Jesus, including all the understanding needed. In community with each other and for the world.