There is nothing I like better I suppose then some good intellectually challenging stuff, of course within the realm of my knowledge and education, even if sometimes I like to be pushed by something which seems altogether foreign. And there are few things I dislike more than trying to solve some matter intellectually, which is bothering me, something like a brushfire, not challenging the faith for me, but certainly a challenge to my own faith.
I think it is okay for me to ask questions, pursue answers, even working through difficult places. But one thing I don’t do well to forget or leave behind is the need to remain like a little child before my Father God.
Jesus told his disciples that unless they would change and become like little children, they would never enter the kingdom of heaven. This life we are called to in Jesus is a life of implicit trust, as well as implicit obedience. Something we probably have to learn and grow into, something which hopefully becomes more and more a part of who we are. “Trust and obey…” And living in joy, the joy of the Lord.
This can be all very much a challenge for me, since it has been almost characteristic of me to not only encounter trouble, but to be very much troubled. I suppose this is not all that uncommon, but if we are overcome with this problem, we may do well to ask ourselves if we really are one of God’s children through faith in Jesus. If we are, we need to remember that and act on it, which may often mean not acting at all.
A good psalm to remember and pray and aspire to:
My heart is not proud, Lord,
my eyes are not haughty;
I do not concern myself with great matters
or things too wonderful for me.
But I have calmed and quieted myself,
I am like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child I am content.