light breaking in

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Your statutes are wonderful;
    therefore I obey them.
The unfolding of your words gives light;
    it gives understanding to the simple.
I open my mouth and pant,
    longing for your commands.
Turn to me and have mercy on me,
    as you always do to those who love your name.
Direct my footsteps according to your word;
    let no sin rule over me.
Redeem me from human oppression,
    that I may obey your precepts.
Make your face shine on your servant
    and teach me your decrees.
Streams of tears flow from my eyes,
    for your law is not obeyed.

Psalm 119:129-136

If there’s anything we need as followers of Christ, it’s the unfolding of God’s words to us. Often we frankly walk around in darkness, knowing where we should turn, but frankly not really getting it. Head knowledge is not bad, but it’s not enough. We need truth that penetrates into the heart, and from that into our lives to change them.

A large part of the faith life is the willingness to continue on in the darkness. God’s light does break through, but there are enough clouds and a few eclipses along the way, that we need to learn to trust even when we can’t see. When we can’t feel, maybe even when we can’t say anything. We can groan to God in lost prayer, the Spirit then helping us (Romans 8:26-27).

When you read the entire psalm, you’ll find that the psalmist is often struggling, feeling threatened, and not really connecting well with God. There’s lots of struggle, and sometimes thoughts that we as Jesus followers should not have. But then you run into this section. It’s like the lid is lifted, and the light comes streaming in.

This is what we long for, what we need. Not just to give us light to understand, but to live. To understand what God wants us to do. With love for God and for our neighbor being at the heart of it. In and through Jesus.