processing over time

I am so to speak a word processor. And it takes time for me to get to what might take others an instant. I don’t know why, though I have some guesses. Part of it is surely the weakness of often not being able to make up my mind, and then later regretting a decision. Almost like a knee jerk reaction, I usually do that, second guessing myself.

I am beginning to understand that a large part of it is probably just trying to sift through everything. To consider each part and the whole. All of that takes time. Thoughts primarily, but experience as well, and all that goes into life.

We’re all “wired” differently. One way of being is not at all better than another. We actually all need each other. I’m glad there are others who have quicker insights into things enough to make some hard decisions immediately with clarity. I tend to ask the “what if” questions. It takes a while to be solidified along a certain line. When we get there we can make split second decisions when need be, and stick with them.

This reminds me of people in Scripture like Daniel and the John of the Revelation. And others. Life is a process, and we all change over time, hopefully for the better. We need to accept that we’ll be at a loss certain times. Not settled. That is actually kind of where I’m at right now. Yes, settled in the faith. But not necessarily how that faith plays out in this world. More time in Scripture, prayer and in life for me. As I seek to sort it out with others. In and through Jesus.