how to overcome a condemning heart, a guilty conscience

We know love by this, that he laid down his life for us—and we ought to lay down our lives for the brothers and sisters. How does God’s love abide in anyone who has the world’s goods and sees a brother or sister in need and yet refuses help?

Little children, let us love not in word or speech but in deed and truth. And by this we will know that we are from the truth and will reassure our hearts before him whenever our hearts condemn us, for God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything. Beloved, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have boldness before God, and we receive from him whatever we ask, because we obey his commandments and do what pleases him.

And this is his commandment, that we should believe in the name of his Son Jesus Christ and love one another, just as he has commanded us. All who obey his commandments abide in him, and he abides in them. And by this we know that he abides in us, by the Spirit that he has given us.

1 John 3:16-24; NRSVue

If we take moral responsibility seriously in this life, we’re going to realize there’s always something that we did wrong and something else that we should have done, and something else we may have not done good enough in our minds. There are a host of ways that we can feel guilty and condemned.

We are told that laying down our lives for the believers in our midst means helping those in material need, doing what we can, be it big or little and everything in between. It is then evident that indeed God’s love resides in our hearts. Through adherence to the simple commandment to believe in the name of Jesus and to love one another, we can indeed overcome our guilty conscience (see helpful NET footnotes in link above), and condemning heart which can often plague us.

The commandments we’re to keep are again simple: believe in Jesus’s name and love one another. As we do that and seek to do all that pleases God, not only is our heart set at rest in God’s presence, but we have boldness in prayer that God will answer our simple, humble prayers. Our hearts set free to live in the love of God in Christ, a love intended for all.

taking one’s eyes off/keeping one’s eyes on Jesus

Immediately he made the disciples get into a boat and go on ahead to the other side, while he dismissed the crowds. And after he had dismissed the crowds, he went up the mountain by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone, but by this time the boat, battered by the waves, was far from the land, for the wind was against them. And early in the morning he came walking toward them on the sea. But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, saying, “It is a ghost!” And they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them and said, “Take heart, it is I; do not be afraid.”

Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat, started walking on the water, and came toward Jesus. But when he noticed the strong wind, he became frightened, and, beginning to sink, he cried out, “Lord, save me!” Jesus immediately reached out his hand and caught him, saying to him, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?” When they got into the boat, the wind ceased. And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

Matthew 14:22-33; NRSVue

The account of Jesus walking on the water is included in three of the gospels: Matthew, Mark and John. In Matthew, we have the interesting addition of Peter coming to the Lord from the boat to walk on the water himself. Whatever we might make of this, it surely is a teaching tool for our lives, or I am supposing such. If it was possible for Peter, then it’s possible for us.

It had been a busy time: Jesus with the disciples had just fed the five thousand men along with women and children starting with just five loaves of bread and two fishes. Afterwards as he was sending the people away, he directed the disciples to immediately get in a boat on the Sea of Galilee to head to the other side. Then he prayed. Meanwhile a storm hit the lake.

And what does Jesus do? He starts walking on the water, catching up with the disciples who were having a hard time making headway due to the storm. Naturally they were scared, thinking it might be a ghost. But when Jesus called out to them, telling them it was he, Peter spoke up. If it was him, that Jesus should tell Peter to come out to meet him walking on the water. So the Lord told Peter to come.

So Peter gets out of the boat and in boldness walks on the water. Walking toward the Lord, eyes on the Lord. But Peter takes his eyes off the Lord and directs his gaze at the waters on which he is walking and notices how turbulent they are and becomes afraid. And at that moment he begins to sink into the water and cries out to Jesus for help. Jesus grabs him and remonstrates him for his little faith and for doubting. And when they step into the boat, the storm ceases accompanied by the confession of the disciples that Jesus truly is the Son of God. It is one of those wow, miraculous stories in Scripture, but surely it has something to teach us.

True Christianity is a faith commitment to Christ. One is committed by faith and baptism to follow Jesus in the Jesus community. And while it is a group endeavor, it certainly includes each of us as disciples or followers, yes even imitators of Jesus. And always with the caveat that our faith and allegiance is uniquely set on Jesus, to him alone as Lord and Master, Teacher, Instructor, our Savior and the Savior of all.

But why in this story would Jesus walk on the water? That might seem over the top. Christianity is not known to be a walking on the water faith. Not literally, but figuratively there is surely something important for all of us here.

Yes, Jesus is the one who leads and does what he does. And I take it that Jesus walking on the Sea of Galilee in the midst of a storm towards his disciples who were struggling in their boat and written down in Matthew’s gospel account is meant for us in our personal and collective lives in Christ.

We come to Christ in faith, intent on following, and we’re inspired at times to take risks, to act boldly. But we learn sooner than later that we have a tendency to fall back into our old ways. We take our eyes off of Christ and look squarely at our circumstances and we’re overcome. Our faith begins to flag, to tank, and we begin to sink into anxiety, fear, or whatever the experience may be.

Life is not a bed of roses, nor a nice quiet calm sea, with maybe some nice waves for surfers. It can be quite unpredictable, stormy. I wonder what the disciples were thinking having been directed by Jesus into the boat only to encounter a storm which must have made them wonder if the Lord knew what he was doing. And right after the feeding of the five thousand! But they were soon to learn something which would become embedded in their hearts and minds for meditation and life.

I still, even after all these years as a Christian do not know how to straddle some of the difficulties and especially some of the enigmas that come my way with a steady faith in Christ. It’s not like I don’t have faith anymore once the bad things hit, but it’s more like I’m too often no longer acting on it. I get my eyes off the Lord and onto circumstances, and I indeed sink and often can’t get out. Unlike Peter, it seems like I’m underwater, somehow sustained by God, but I evidently didn’t even have the faith to cry out to the Lord to save me, to experience his hand in doing so, then to get into the boat and see the storm cease. If I ever get there, maybe I’ll write a book on it, or a chapter in a book.

At least this account gives us a glimpse into what I think is possible for us in this life, not that we’ll get it perfectly. But God is present in Jesus to help us through the great troubles of life in a way which will give testimony to the uniqueness of Jesus as the Son of God and help us, as well as draw others to him.

why we are so bold

Now if the ministry that brought death, which was engraved in letters on stone, came with glory, so that the Israelites could not look steadily at the face of Moses because of its glory, transitory though it was, will not the ministry of the Spirit be even more glorious? If the ministry that brought condemnation was glorious, how much more glorious is the ministry that brings righteousness! For what was glorious has no glory now in comparison with the surpassing glory. And if what was transitory came with glory, how much greater is the glory of that which lasts!

Therefore, since we have such a hope, we are very bold. We are not like Moses, who would put a veil over his face to prevent the Israelites from seeing the end of what was passing away. But their minds were made dull, for to this day the same veil remains when the old covenant is read. It has not been removed, because only in Christ is it taken away. Even to this day when Moses is read, a veil covers their hearts. But whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate[a] the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.

2 Corinthians 3:7-18

There is no question that there’s a kind of boldness that goes with being “in Christ.” Paul had that boldness as a minister of the new covenant. The same Spirit that was on him is also on us in Christ. We too share in the blessing, which by our witness we’re to share with the world by good works, and by pointing others to the good news in Christ.

This boldness we have doesn’t at all depend on us. It is completely the Lord and his grace that makes it a reality. Even in our weakness, and we might say especially in our weakness, given this entire letter.

There are no two ways about it: in Christ there’s an unmistakable boldness for all who are people of the new covenant. The Spirit is on us to help us be a witness, and to change us from glory to glory into Jesus’s likeness. In and through him.

 

focused praying

The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results.

James 5:16b; NLT

Exactly how to translate this verse is up for grabs. I like the point that the NLT rendering, along with other translations (see link, and other translations on Bible Gateway) makes. Real prayer is focused, whereas simply praying a prayer is not necessarily so, akin to when Isaiah (quoted by the Lord) says that people can praise God with their lips, while their hearts are far from him.

Whatever the correct way to translate this passage (and that seems up for grabs, or interpretation, but might be a good further study), I think the idea of earnestness or fervency, wholeheartedness in praying, is certainly apt and commendable. We are so good at doing religious things half heartedly, going through the motions. But faith, especially in difficult matters, but really in anything in this life wants to take hold of God, like Jacob of old, who wrestled with the angel of God (Genesis 32).

It’s not like in all of our weakness, we shouldn’t feebly utter a prayer. We should; we should pray all kinds of prayers. I think in part so that we make sure we’re not merely going through the motions, it is good to give at least some of our prayers the strong expression they deserve, sort of like making our words bold in print. It seems like in our human weakness, this helps me to be focused, and cut through my own denseness, or ineptitude, and through the spiritual resistance of the devil, and hopefully pray in the Spirit.

Prayer requires effort, and is part of the fight of faith we are in for the good of others, was well as for our own good in this life. In and through Jesus.