After this Job opened his mouth and cursed the day of his birth. Job said:
“Let the day perish in which I was born,
and the night that said,
‘A male is conceived.’
Let that day be darkness!
May God above not seek it
or light shine on it.
Let gloom and deep darkness claim it.
Let clouds settle upon it;
let the blackness of the day terrify it.
That night—let thick darkness seize it!
let it not rejoice among the days of the year;
let it not come into the number of the months.
Yes, let that night be barren;
let no joyful cry be heard in it.
Let those curse it who curse the Sea,
those who are skilled to rouse up Leviathan.
Let the stars of its dawn be dark;
let it hope for light but have none;
may it not see the eyelids of the morning—
because it did not shut the doors of my mother’s womb
and hide trouble from my eyes.
In this passage after the bottom completely falls out of Job’s life, he not only curses the day of his birth, but seems to wish the undoing of creation (scholarly essay; compare with Genesis 1:1-2:4a). I doubt that many of us have been in the extremity in which Job found himself in. But the story told might help us when we’re experiencing inevitable regret, oftentimes too hard on ourselves, but not excluding the sins and mistakes we’ve made.
Life is uneven, and there is so much in the mix, little we can actually control, outcomes- certainly not. We do well to rather than curse the darkness or even long for darkness, look for the light. But admittedly when one is in the dark hole and vortex of the storm, it’s hard not only to see straight or at all, but even harder to get out of it. One is sucked into something of a nightmare. This certainly seemed to be the case with Job. He did not yet have the perspective which he seemed to have gathered by the time the book is done.
Such a realization can help us when we feel attacked or are shuddering or are simply faced with life as it really is, with all of its dangers and unsettling questions. We do or at least I tend to put too much of a burden on myself, much harder on myself than I believe God is. And yet the story of Job as told certainly does not lend itself to a cozy Bible bedtime story. But the good in that is it helps us see something of an answer of faith, indeed, even in our questions, but arriving to something of a settled state, not with all our questions or maybe any of them answered, but something of a settledness in an unsettling world. And in the vision and good news of God in Jesus, a desire and passion for a good, just, hopeful settledness for all.